First Post

This is me  ck2r

and this is my eating disorder recovery blog .

The offical lable for me is a purge type anoretic for all of you medical types out there not as if anyone will really ever read this blog , you have to be insightful and witty or quick to the point to be interesting

so as I lived with my disorder…

Life was good I felt under control thinner,happier, for once I had a purpose to lose weight to be perfect. I could escape from my familys ideas of what I should be. As I delved deeper into my eating disorder I found proanorexia sites, where I thought I had my only trues friends.

It’s amazing how fast it changed though

Then the weight kept dropping and suddenly this is’nt feel-good-beautiful-controlled magic world any more. It is hell
but it’s gonna be over I know just one day
recovery is hell
I think it might be worth it but who knows what recovery
what normalcy is?
To me normal is waking up cold and purple skipping breakfast running to school and then maybe I’ll pass out in the girls washroom. normalcy is lying to my family hiding from “concerned” friends. I want to be happy but.. To be happy you must need a life right?
Anorexia and Bulima that is my life! I have to get rid of the one thing that holds me together and at the same time tears me apart

I want to live again

mamaVISION and TwistedSISTER are my inspiration behind this. So here I go down Recovery Lane whats behind it who knows?

Who cares?

It’s gotta be better than this