I don’t know whats holding me together today
Wats stopping me from just ending this all or crying in the middle of the hallway. Physically things suck I was going to ride my bike but the little black spots of fear clouded my eyes my heart is like a drum with a weak and drunk drummer [...]
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I don’t know…
Posted in Recovery..The only Category on April 3, 2008 | 1 Comment »
So I’m going back
Posted in Recovery..The only Category, tagged fears, getting back on track, god, going back, Recovery, therapists, uniforms on March 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Getting into the loop,going the fast lane Into that pressure cooker. I’m terrified. I’ve never been so scared to go back…. People ask me questions all the time it’s getting hard to lie back to them. I’m praying real hard so I can get a little strength from God but I’m not sure I’m ever [...]
I was going to go back…
Posted in Recovery..The only Category on March 25, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I was gonna go back to school today. Uniform ready bags packed and a long string of excuses for my very long absense pre rehearsed. Then I woke up screaming with the worst fever I’ve ever felt in my life. So now I’m puking my stomach out and coughing up a storm. This sucks I [...]
I just may be too crazy for them….
Posted in Recovery..The only Category, tagged Recovery, MamaVISION, Dumb Doctors, Holidays, Lame Quotes, Ingnorant People, Outpatient, Treatment on March 23, 2008 | 1 Comment »
So I was accepted into the outpatient
yay?
Well according to the women “she is concerned” and I just may be too crazy for them. I had to fill out a million questionares with questions like “Do you like Yourself?”
Sure I self harm,make myself puke and restrict till I pass out cause I’m an egomaniac.
These people are [...]
Slipping
Posted in Recovery..The only Category, tagged Anorexia, Dumb Doctors, Lame Depressing Thoughts, Pro Recovery on March 18, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Well it’s another day , and I’m down another pound. I know I should smash the scale but I JUST CAN’T It’s like I know I should east but I just can’t it’s like asking me to stop breathing. I’m so scared I have my weekly weigh in tommorow and If my BMI drops much [...]
First Post
Posted in Recovery..The only Category, tagged Recovery, Anorexia, Bulimia, MamaVISION, TwistedSISTER on March 17, 2008 | 2 Comments »
This is me ck2r
and this is my eating disorder recovery blog .
The offical lable for me is a purge type anoretic for all of you medical types out there not as if anyone will really ever read this blog , you have to be insightful and witty or quick to the point to be interesting
so [...]
